Well actually, mostly friends only. Sometimes I forget to f-lock things. But not the important things. Those are always f-locked.

So you know, how I'm awesome and always suggest fun things for you to do? (I know I don't really but just agree with me for the sake of this post)

Go join spnland

It's a fun team challenge comm. And it looks like it's going to be really cool.

Also join TEAM SAM!

I had an interview today. It went well I think.

However I dont have much faith in their computer people.

( Silly under the cut )

So anybody still interested in random Asylum stories?

For every single photo op I had no idea what I was doing with my face because I got so overwhelmed with the pretty. Especially during the J2 photo. I went in and gave a really high pitched hello and tried not to look at Jared because I was sure I was going to do something stupid, like faint but he turned and smiled at me (and looked at me) after I squeaked. And as can be seen from my photo I at least managed to smile in the direction of the camera.

Misha was awesome. People need to stop being mean about Misha. It makes me sad. You wouldn't like me when I'm sad. During the autographs I got the full hit of his epic sarcasm. I had a sentence planned. A nice sentence. I was going to be friendly and shake his hand and tell him that I hoped he had a fun weekend and not look like I was a second away from jumping around, doing flaily hands like a crazed fangirl. Obviously that's not how it happened. So I shake his hand (he has nice hands-I like hands) and he looks up at me and smiles and his eyes were there and they were looking at me and all those words I had got lost on the way to my mouth.

Me-Have fun.
Misha-No, no I don't think I will.
Me- *internally flailing* Well it was worth a try.
Misha- Yeah it was.

So not fair. I am the princess of sarcasm (only beaten by smeckles90 because her sarcasm is undetectable unless you know her. She actually sounds like she's a nice person.) 90% of all words said by me are sarcastic. He broke my brain and it's not fair. I couldn't even think of one sarcastic thing to say in return. Nothing. *le sigh* It was kinda awesome though :D

Also also also I have had an epic thing for Jared's hands forever. I like hands, I really, really like Jared's hands. I shook his hand and didn't even attempt to say anything more than 'nice to meet you'

So this is me actually not hiatused any more. Avoiding LJ didn't do anything but make me lonelier so I'm back. *jazz hands*

(also spell checker, stop telling me my name is wrong. My name is not wrong. You are wrong pfft)

I am now officially a university drop out. Failed my exams and I can't afford to repeat the year.

No uni, no job, no money and a mum that keeps telling me how much of a disappointment I am. So I'm going to take my depressed ass off the internet.

Don't know if or when I'll be back.

This is also your free defriending day.

I'm home. Well I've been home for about 4 hours but I really needed to sleep some.

I had the most fantastic time ever at Asylum. I'll forget Friday happened (bad organisation etc etc nothing new from Rogue though)

Misha is my favourite ever. Jared is more gorgeous in real life than on the tv (I didn't think it was possible). I shook his hand and it has filled my Jared's hands kink for a lifetime. I didn't approve of Jensen's hair but I changed my mind in the end. My group photo is the most fantastic thing ever. I laughed so hard at Gabe and Malik. And I'll say more when I do a proper report.

Now I have about 70 thousand tabs open and I'm really looking forward to reading other reports and then I'm going to sleep some more :D

so there's a bungie jump thing at the shopping centre i'm at. Should i do it?

YAY! Got my J2 photo and Jared photo for Asylum. Had a minor panic when it wouldn't load.
And bought the same for smeckles90.

Jared!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

AT ASYLUM!

BEST DAY EVER!

Happy New Year!

It's about 3 minutes til New Year here in Scotland and I have had a lot of beer!

Hope everybody is having (or has had) as much alcohol fun as me.

I'm hiding in my bedroom because aunts and uncles are over dropping off presents and I'm feeling kind of anti-social.

I spent the whole day with my two sisters, out shopping and drinking. I don't like spending time with my sisters. There is a large age gap between us. I'm 19, they are 31 and 33. I don't have much (aside from some genes) in common with them and it always feels forced. So I try to avoid them. Doesn't really work.

Christmas isn't going to be all that great this year. My dad is still not back at work after his accident and we have next to no money. I know I wont be getting much and to be honest I'll be annoyed if my mum wastes money on me. She feels bad that she cant get my nieces and nephews good presents but she wont take any money from me.

All in all, this year has not been fantastic. On occasions it sucked beyond all telling. Most if not all of that is my fault, so I deserve to feel bad about it.

So next year I'm going to try to make it better. I've been told enough times that I need to make things better by myself. The only issue I have with that is how to go about doing that but whatever I'll figure it out next year.

Next year I will-

1. Spend at least one hour on LJ everyday so that I can comment to people and actually stay friends with people.


2. Make an effort with my family. I don't feel close to most of them so I need to change that.


3. Get a job. I've tried really hard this year to get a job but have gotten nowhere, so try harder.


4. Do good in uni. Stuff happened this semester that made it hard to focus on my exams. I'm not anticipating good grades. Next year I will do so damn brilliantly that this semester wont matter


5. Stop relying so much on other people. I coped perfectly fine before without whining all the time about my problems, I can do it again.


6. Stop letting something that happened ages ago mess up things for me now. (easier said that done)


7. Try to fix what I messed up. Find out if I even can fix what I did. Find out if it will do more harm than good.

Not that much but its enough. Guess I should make a start and actually say hi to the family. I'm pretty sure they don't actually know I'm in the house

Ha, who needs to be writing essays or studying for exams when you've just bought your photo op with Misha Collins.

I ♥ you smeckles90. Thank you.

Can it be May now?

Om nom nom Misha.

Also way glad I get the group shot with my ticket. £80? It was only £60 last year. Whatever, dont care.

Misha Misha Misha (I abuse sparkles because I can)

Misha!!!!!!!!!!!

At Asylum OMG!!!

Why do I have no Misha or Castiel icons *fails*

And hi...I'm not dead. Just stopping by to squee.

My first day at my boring job is over. Not too bad. I could really do without the girl I work with doing my job and telling me how to do my job even though I have been told how to do it already. But whatever I'm not going to be working with her all the time.

God, I miss working in the vet school at Glasgow Uni. That was the best job ever. Only downside being that it was a voluntary position and I didn't get paid. I seriously loved that job. I miss my greyhounds.

Im so very tired. Sleep is being an issue once again.

In conclusion Jared Padalecki.

I was planning on doing a giant report but I started it and realised that I was just going on, and on and it would end up being boring.

Opening the con booklet and finding out that not only did we have AJ Buckley but we now had the secret guest of Travis Wester was awesome. Really it makes sense to have both of them

This will contain spoilers for all episodes aired in the US. Just a warning.

Also if I'm mentioning "us" it'll be me and smeckles90. I was with her the whole weekend. Man did I get bored of her *g*

( Saturday Highlights )

( Sunday highlights )

I will have forgotten something. And I don't have photos. And its long.

Best weekend ever. Nothing could have made it better and I honestly think it would have been so very different and possibly not as much fun if either Jared or Jensen could have gone.

I'm home. I had the most fantastic weekend ever in the history of weekends. I love Jim Beaver more than it is possible to say.

There will be a report. With pictures. Just not right now...I'm still dead.

Don't spoil me. Just don't. if you're not going to cut spoilers you wont be on my flist, simple as. It wouldn't be the first time I've defriended for spoilers.

Honestly I spoiled myself pretty badly for season 3 of Supernatural, but season 4, no...just no, don't spoil me. don't spoil me with hints, or speculation, episode titles or anything. Even vague things annoy me because I'll think about them and end up spoiling myself. If I hear anything more than Sam and Dean are in it, I wont be amused. I'll be pissy.

In conclusion-spoil me and I'll get violent (it'll be violence in my head but it'll still be violence)

Here ends my rant. I'm now going to sleep (its 2 in the morning) where I'm going to try and forget spoilers.

It's funny how seeing someone you've not seen for years and having them smile and wave at you like you're the sort of people who actually smile and wave at each other can set you back further than you've been in a long time.

I'm not going to be on lj for awhile. I kinda need to sort my head out.

No no no no no fucking no!

An exam on the Saturday of Asylum!

I'm going to go in a corner and kill myself

ETA-LJ! give me my friggen comments. Dont make today worse

Give me a testimony

So occasionally im a sheep. Everyone's doing this so im doing it too.